What's going on?

I will say I don't know :) I'm trying to stay busy and not think about the fact that soon (I hope but have no idea anymore what to expect) we may have a referral of our son! It seems like a dream that you never really wake up from - will it ever become reality? will I ever wake up with a sigh of relief that our son is finally home? Seems like it's getting farther and farther away the more we wait - as backwards as that is.